deep thoughts that come when you've been sitting on a bus for 8 hours

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Until we meet again Maroc. . . In'Shallah*

8/2010

I’ve decided something. Every so often if you’re lucky that is, it hits you that your life is a series of twists and turns that has chaotically brought you to the very place that you are standing right now. Organized chaos- butterfly effect- divine intervention…

“I thought about one of my favorite Sufi poems which says that God long ago drew a circle in the sand exactly around the spot where you are standing right now. I was never not coming here this was never not happening" -Eat Pray Love.

**Its funny how deeply people can touch your soul after only a few short weeks. Almost as if they are reaching inside of you and taking a piece of you with them while leaving a part of their essence behind, where it will forever become a part of you. Life is a solo trip, but you’ll have lots of visitors. Some of them are long- term most aren’t. Some people flash into our lives and for however long the moment lasts, we are never, ever the same.

This life is a fleeting concept, let whatever comes to you go through you. For it will only last a moment. Traveling is one of the most personal things you can do. Whatever you’re going through whatever you’re searching for, find a way to survive yourself, by yourself, because at the end of the day its just you out there. Don’t be too hard on yourself and try not to take yourself too seriously, or you’ll never make it out alive. You can’t take flight without looking up and letting go. So let go, or be dragged.

On the way to Chefchouen I realized something, there’s a strange vertigo that traveling gives you. Every so often you look around you and notice that the ground has shifted. It makes you weak and it makes you strong, and sometimes it kinda makes you want to throw up. But when its over, when the dizziness departs and the nausea subsides you begin to trust in the journey and believe that the Universe will have your back—and that this whole crazy thing, just might save your life. Look at everything with an open heart. Laugh in the face of the things that frustrate you, smile at the things that touch you and know that its all part of the process. Without it, you would never understand anything.

Tell the truth . Tell the truth. Tell the truth. If to no one else but yourself. For 10 years my mom has had a quote on our fridge that says, “You have to embrace the possibility that you may be wanting and pursuing things that simply aren’t right for you.” Don’t be afraid of this, “There are times in our lives when we are feeling deeply unhappy, uninspired and unfulfilled. But it is in such moments, propelled by this discomfort, that we are most likely to step out of our ruts, and start looking for different ways and truer answers” (M. Scott Peck).

There is a theory that if you yearn sincerely enough for something, you will find it. The Universe will shift, destiny’s molecules will get themselves organized and your path will soon intersect with the path of just what you need. But remember..

“Sometimes what you want and what you need are so far apart, yet so close together that you can’t quite tell which is which anymore” (Mark Twain).

Try to foster your patience. The Universe works on time, just maybe not on your time. Pray. Pray when you need to talk, meditate when you need answers. But know that someone else is talking, so listen. Listen to the voice inside of you, it is your God given right to be able to tap into the Universe. Most people, your average person I guess, is too comfortable in monotonous dependency to, “step out of their ruts and start looking for different ways or truer answers”.

Meditate- on whatever causes a revolution in your mind. “Something was about to occur that would change forever the progression of my life—almost like one of those crazy astronomical super events when a planet flips over in outer space for no reason whatsoever, and its molten core shifts, relocating its poles and altering its shape radically, such that the whole mass of the planet suddenly becomes oblong instead of spherical. Something like that. What happened was, I started to pray” (Elizabeth Gilbert)

We learn 10% of what we read, 20% of what we hear, 30% of what we see, 50% of what we see and hear, 70% of what we discuss, 80% of what we experience and 95% of what we teach.

“Do not go out into the world and do well, go out into the world and do good” –Ghandi.

Halfway through I felt myself changing watching the learning process first hand, having children teaching me Arabic, teaching them. Kids are sponges, be careful what you soak them in. 

 

Desiderata (desired things) “Go placidly amid the noise and the haste and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender, be on good terms with all people. Speak your truth quietly and clearly and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive people—they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter for there will always be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interest in your career, however humble, it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is. Many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself, you are a child of the Universe no less than the trees and the stars, you have a right to be here, and whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the Universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world” (Max Ehrmann). 


“All that I know is there’s nothing here to run from and here everyone I know has somebody to lean on” –Coldplay

katie monacelli